Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Chronic Over-sharer?

A dear new friend confessed last week that she is a "Chronic Over-Sharer", and it struck a chord with me. This is a theme that God seems to have put in my life the past few months.

Beth Moore says in her study of Esther: "We can not realize our destiny without transparency."

I'm sorry to break this to you, but yes, I tend to babble at times. I know this comes as a major shock. Ha! This is something that I have tried to reign in over the past year, and had much prayer about (obviously, God isn't done with me yet if this post is any indication!).

Yesterday's post gnawed at me last night...Satan kept whispering "You shouldn't have posted that long bit about your father. No one cares. No one wants to read that depressing mess...You should delete it - right now (at midnight) or first thing in the morning at least. Really, that was just pathetic!"

I've spent an awful lot of energy and time concealing certain parts of my life from others. I know I'm not alone here - can I get an "Amen" from the sisters?? Some things I just don't share with people - whether I've known them for years or just met them recently. They are shameful, embarrassing, and yes - I fear those people won't accept me anymore if they knew. If you're one of those people who has read my blog from the beginning, you might be thinking to yourself right now "Oh, I don't see that she has ANY trouble sharing...I remember that one post...oh, and THAT one - yikes!"

But real transparency?

I want to be transparent.

I want to be a Chronic Over-Sharer if it will help someone else along their journey. And for my friend - your sharing most definitely helps! :)

I want to be a person who knows so deeply in her heart that "There is therefore now no condemnation..." that I can share freely, truly, and be authentic in every part of my life.

I'm just trying to figure out how to do that. Any tips? :)

I'm really trying to get back to a Happy Place here at Frugal Grace, but there's just been a lot going on that I need to process lately. So I hope I'm not totally bumming everyone out here!


Melissa said...

I can totally relate. After a lifetime of hiding "stuff," I'm learning to be transparent. It's a learning process, to be sure, but it's worth the challenge.

misundersteph said...

I wish I could say that my blabbermouth was a conscious decision, but it's not. I seem to be missing the filter most people have between the brain and the mouth. While I do regret a lot of the choices I've made and things that have happened to me, I can't change them, and if people want to judge me or look down on me because of them, then I don't really want them in my life anyway. So there. :)

Ugh...baby crying. Thanks for thinking my diarrhea of the mouth is an admirable quality. :)

Misty said...

I thank God everytime I get to read one of your blogs, you and I have had so many of the same experiences and have so much in common that it helps me feel like I am not crazy, Melinda feels that way too. Thank you so much for sharing and helping me along the way. You are a blessing in my life, who would have known when we were teenagers hanging out and getting into mischief that 25 years later we would be so different? I also meant to comment on the Brothers blog, my dad is a Vietnam Vet too who has all kinds of bad JUJU to deal with. I have seen that look numerous times and he distanced himself from my brother and I so he would not damage us but sometimes I think it caused more than it saved us from. OK, now I am putting too much out there, LOL. Just know I appreciate all you do!